Post by bailey on Nov 8, 2010 2:42:14 GMT -5
bailey cassidy prescott.
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some people ask me, what drives you? what makes you want to keep going when you've had so much taken from you? my answer, is life is worth living and thats the motto i've always lived for. my parents died when i was eleven years old and i was pretty much pushed into the foster care system without anyone else to look after me, family after family. but im still here, as strong as i ever could be. i've been writing so much lately, sitting in the coffee shop just thinking about what could have been and where i'd be now if my parents hadn't died, being an only child made the whole situation worse, but if they were still around i know they would have expanded our little home, they would have brought some new life into it, a beautiful bubbly baby, they'd been talking about it for so long, when ever daddy would take me out riding, i'd sit atop my gorgeous chestnut horse named polka and he'd talk all about his fond memories of when i was just a baby. i was closest to my father, yeah i was a daddys girl, his little princess. he was extra protective of me, whenever i'd fall down he'd be the one to kiss my knee and tell me it would all be better, at night he'd tuck me in with my favourite teddy, chester and sing me a song before turning out the light letting my dreams carry me away. i don't think theres a day that goes by when i don't miss him, i guess you could say i get distracted easily, i get lost in my thoughts more often than not, and spend a lot of my time down at the beach just thinking about what i've done and all those fond childhood memories.
keep in mind, i love my foster parents, jeff and melissa, they're such great people, who have fostered so many kids, they've been there since i was sixteen - and recently i finally managed to move out on my own, with a little assistance from the fund my parents had set up for me when i was born. i was entrusted with it when i turned eighteen, but i really don't want to touch that money, not yet anyway. it's gone mostly towards college, and i'm blessed for that alone - i still work though, at starbucks actually. i love it, the smell of coffee, the sound of soothing music and people buzzing with energy or sleepy, depending on the time of the day i suppose. but i've been there for two years now and i'm really not looking for anything else, until i get out of college at least. i'm studying psychology, i'm really interested in it, but i'm wondering all the time if i'm doing the right thing, which isn't the best thing to do - considering how much it costs to take this course, so i've decided to stick with it, even if it turns out i'm completely miserable with it. melissa thought i'd do something with music, she knows i'm pretty much attached to my guitar, and she loves to hear me sing, while jeff thought i'd do something with animals, since i spend every spare second down at the meadow riding my gorgeous appaloosa shilo. guess i took a completely different path, but i was never really sure of what i wanted to do, i'm still young though, so i don't think it matters all that much. i've still got forever to decide on what i want to do.
bet you're wondering about my love life, and things like that. i have a big group of friends from around here, who i'm really close to, but boys haven't really been in the picture for a while. i've really only had a few relationships, all steady and pretty much lasted a while, but i was constantly moving around and things got hard - i really didn't expect to have been here for so long, but even here i've only dated one boy. we're still good friends, i just don't think we'll get together like that again. before you ask, no, i'm not a virgin, something i'm not all that proud of, but i only lost it earlier this year with that friend of mine. it was a mutual decision, i just wish now i'd held off for the right guy, but who knows when he's gonna turn up, right? but heres to the future, and heres to another ten amazing years and memories i'm never gonna forget.
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