REDFERN, lillian lyra

[lyra lillian redfern]

lyra lillian redfern.

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Dear Diary,

mom and dad are fighting again. i saw mom get hit by dad again. it's scary. daddy is scary. mommy says that he loves me lots, but i don't think so. daddy is mean. he says that i have to be better than mommy. not weak and useless, he says. i don't know what to do, diary! mommy says that i have to listen to daddy, so i have to work hard at school and get a good job. i wanna be a reporter someday! mommy thinks it's a good job but daddy says it's stupid. he also swore. mommy tells me not to copy daddy's 'bad words' but i can't help it. at school, i got in trouble for saying a bad word to a girl who was mean to me. in the end, i kicked her and broke her arm acidentally. i got in trouble. mommy yelled at me but daddy was proud. he said i was growing up good. i like that. i need to make daddy proud of me, that's what.

Dear Diary,

i got my period today. yup, i'm growing up! mom's really proud of me and she's going to take me shopping tomorrow. i'm so excited! i've got a boyfriend now and he loves me lots! he said that he'd go to the ends of the world for me. hehe, i'm so happy! i've never been this happy before! i'm excited for tomorrow! i'll write more later!

Dear Journal,

i can't take this shit anymore. why are people so lovey dovey? it makes me sick to my stomach. dad was talking to me earlier today and told me that i should finish my schooling soon in order to go to work. i live to make him proud, which disgusts me in a way. my useless mother is always bagering me into finding a boyfriend. how stupid can she get? can she not see that there is no such thing as love? remember when i was thirteen and got a 'boyfriend'? ha, boyfriend my ass. he was nothing but a cheater and a manwhore. that son of a bitch deserved what he got. oh, yes. i never did tell you what happened to him, did i? i got him killed. yes. that's right. i told some people about him. they're my friends, you see. these friends got angry. he died the following week after i found out what he did to me. i lost my virgintiy to him. i was young back then, unable to see what he truly was. he was vermin. you know, people think im completely evil. i'm not. i'm just slightly insane in a good way. you know what i mean? i mean that i will kill whoever messes with me and i will bring them down. my father understands this, of course. he's the one that introduced me to these 'friends'. i'd rather call them allies. well, anyways. i'd better go. my mother is calling me down.

Dear Journal,

i got a job. FINALLY. you guessed it! i'm a reporter now. i've got a rather good pay and even my father approves of this now. i've made him see the light. how? just told him that i could get his enemies secrets to the light. embarss them in front of the world. that got him thinking. i'm in the who 'celebrity' part of the newspaper and i even got my boss to put me on front page at times. i love this. this was my dream and now i've got it. you may ask, how did i get this job? after a bit of snooping around, i found something that my boss would never let me down on. of course he would hire me. otherwise, he would be dead. begging me not to send those pictures. genius, right? well, i knew i was smart from the beginning. my blackmail never lets me down. so, i think that's about all that i've got to report right now. alright then, write to you later!

love, lyra lillian redfern.

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