COLE, elena emily

[elena emily cole]

elena emily cole

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twenty. sophomore. part time model/ 2nd year university. olivia wilde.[/font][/i]

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Dear Diary,

Mom and Dad are at it again. Yelling. Mom just got hit by Daddy and we're all scared. Me and Cloe are sneaking about and visiting Rion again. I hate this. I want Daddy to die. I hate him for doing that to Mommy. Mommy didn't do anything bad, right? Mommy says that Daddy loves us, but I don't think so because Daddy is always yelling and shouting. It's scary. Really scary. Sure, he gets me and Cloe stuff, but his mood changes quickly after seeing Rion and Mom. Cloe and I are always hiding in our rooms. I like the closet because it's the darkest place. I like dark places but Cloe doesn't like it. I like it because it's quiet. It's not scary at all. You know what, diary? I want to get out of here. I'm trapped. I hate my family. I mean, I hate daddy. I once heard about this word called 'divorce'. People say it's bad. Really bad. It's supposed to mean that the family gets separated and you'll never see your parents again. Well, you know what? I want that to happen. Just as long I don't hear Mommy scream again. I hate hearing the yells downstairs. Me and Cloe are always running to Rion whenever this happens. He protects us. Rion is the best, really. Though I'm not always with him, me and Cloe stick together like glue! Yup, Cloe is my bestest friend ever! I hope the yelling will stop soon.

Dear Journal (i'll stop calling you diary now),

I still hate dad. As much as he tries to cover everything up by pretending to love me and Cloe, I'll always know the truth. If someone hurts Mom it just means that they don't love me. Or anyone in my family. I want to say something, but I'm scared that they're gonna take me away from mom, cloe, and rion. but you know what, journal? Rion finally did something wonderful! He told on dad and now Dad's gonna be arrested! Finally, right? I know my brother is the bravest out of all of us. I mean, he's the one that protects us all, anyways. I can't say that I'll miss him. Though he did give me and cloe lots of stuff, I knew deep inside that it was all fake. I hate my father and will never forgive him for what he's done to Rion and Mom. It's unforgivable. You know, some people say ask me if I would kill my father just to make him stop hurting my family. I told them I would slice his throat and even shoot him five times over in order to protect Mom from him. I love my family. I'll do whatever it takes to protect them.

Dear Journal,

This is just messed up now. My mother decided to kill herself last week and now we're living with Aunt Karen. I can't believe Mom would do that. How could she of killed herself when she knew she had kids? Us! Cloe saw Mom hanging and was practically scarred for life. Journal, this makes my blood boil. Part of me still mourns for Mom but the other part of me likes having Mom dead. Imagine if she was alive! If she was still here, she would probably be sulking around wanting Dad back. It's stupid. Oh well, at least we're at Aunt Karen. I suppose it's good since Karen is really nice and all. It was a good life for me. I earned alot of friends and I was basically having a blast! My marks were pretty good and I even became a cheerleader at the school! I was almost at the top of the social pyramid! Rion, was basically the jock of the school. You know, it was a good thing since nobody bullied me at all because of him. Though...I can't say that I was the nicest person in the world to Cloe. I basically ignored her throughout all of school today. Well, I do that all the time now. I should really introduce her to some guys but really. She's so dull now. Hardly any fun! As much as I love my youngest sister....she can be such a nuisance. Anyways, she'll survive, I'm sure. Well, I've got to go now, Journal. I'll write more later.

Dear Journal,

Well, today was interesting. Though, I've noticed that I've hardly written anything in here anymore. Anyways, Cloe lost lots of weight from the last time I wrote. Rion and I noticed it right away and we started stalking her about her weight. It annoyed me that she would start hurting herself like that. Almost like reminding me that she would become someone like Mom one day. Ugh. Well, we managed to stop her from puking each time she ate something and now she's alright. Though, not that recently, she fell down and broke a few ribs. She was weak already and having that happen to her was a shock for me and Rion. I was expecting my youngest sister to probably die because of that, but I knew she was strong enough to stand to the pain. Anywho. I have a secret that I swore never to tell. Though I'm surprised that Cloe even decided to become deflowered, I'm even more surprised that she would do it with someone she hardly knew! I knew for sure that if I told Rion, my brother would probably hunt the guy down and try and kill him. So, I just kept it a secret. Thank god it was nothing though. Stupid Cloe trying to scare me. I was even more pissed when rumors began to spread in school. I actually punched a guy and broke his nose when he started teasing Cloe. I got a detention, of course. It was nothing though. Well, I've said enough for today. I'll write more later.

Dear Journal,

Okay, so I lied. When I said that I would right more later, I meant in two years. So, we're in America now. Nashville to be precise. Cloe was doing better than ever and I was doing alright myself. Well, just to fill you in, Rion's finally becoming a superstar. Yeah, meaning that he's in movies and all. So technically, we're kinda rich because of him. He bought Cloe a horse! I mean, that's pretty cool if you ask me! I managed to make him get me some new clothes. Nothing much, right? Anyways, I've got another secret, journal. So, I was in Rion's room the other day and found his phone. I really needed a job so I found a person on his phone and texted her about my problem. She agreed to see me and I managed to get a small modeling job! Rion still doesn't know about this so I'm not going to tell him until he actually finds out himself. I'm really happy that I can get a little bit of stardom myself and even though I'm not planning to become a model full time, it's rather good experience. I want to also go into acting though my true goal is to become a doctor. Yeah, really exciting, right? But, it is though! The science field is really interesting and I love working in labs. Almost more than anything.

Yeah. I've finally become a nerd. Go on. Laugh. Whatever. Well, I'm in university studying science now and I love it. Sure, I've got lots of homework, but I'm all good. I know I won't fail. I won't let my family down. As for Dad? Well, once he gets out of jail, I will find a way to end his life. He caused everyone in my family pain. He deserves death. I...I don't know how I'm going to do it. Though, I'm going to make it my mission to make him regret ever hurting mom. For getting her killed. So, here's a little note for you, dad.

Never bother my family again. If you do, you'll wish that you were dead.

love,

elena.

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